I’m procrastinating. I should be outside doing yard work, or continuing to do housework. I just cleaned the toilet and wiped down the baseboards in the hall. That seems to be all of the excitement I can take on this unintentionally lazy Saturday. You see, I had a lot to do today, but instead I’ve gotten not much of anything done. I don’t really know why or how, but the day has gone by rather fast while I’ve done practically nothing. I got into about an hour and a half debate with my brother this morning about the purpose of marriage and children and it has gone down hill from there.
I ate a lot of chicken nuggets yesterday (and a good many today) and now I don’t like chicken nuggets anymore. Sad day. It’s days like these where I can’t tell if I’m an introvert or an extravert. Honestly, I never know for sure. I probably could have gone to Carolina’s Spring Game, but I didn’t make any efforts. I definitely could have gone to Columbia’s International Festival today, but I didn’t. I even sort of wanted to, but the effort seemed like too much. I can spend a lot of time by myself and be content, but then I get weird and realize that I probably need people and social interaction to make me less weird. Then there are these depressive moods that can sweep over me. I can even be a bummer to be around … or downright irritable. Yet I like people. But I also don’t like them. Sometimes I’m fueled by being around folks and other times I’m drained by them. The Myers-Briggs test says that I’m an extravert, but only slightly. Most people think I’m an extravert, but most people don’t live with me. So there.
That reminds me, I have a lot of emails to return. I’ll probably procrastinate on that too, because, for some reason, I sometimes get fearful of communication, so I don’t do it. Which is weird because I communicate as a profession. I have a degree in communication. But it’s ok because eventually I’ll get over it. Future me will hate the current me (the one who exists right now and is procrastinating) because current me didn’t do what she was supposed to do (though to future me, current me is actually past me), but future me will hunker down and get things done. Future me is always having to be the responsible one.
Anyway, yes, I’m aware that this is a weird post. I’m just desperate to put off necessary things at the moment. However, I think I’m getting a spark of energy. I might just go work on the outside work and get some Vitamin D from the sunlight. That’s always good … at least until it give you cancer.
yard club fail.